My Two Precious Jewels

How difficult it is to become a mother whose focus is to give her children a better tomorrow when available resources cannot sustain their needs. It so happened I am one of them. . . one of these mothers who can't almost sleep every night thinking how far her kids have gone academically and how slow we go with their papa with our "paningkamots". I know they can go farther the moment we further our struggles but hindrances like commitment to service, love of our place, and worries about the growth of our children bother me so much causing me to even feel in doubt to grab the chances of embracing the ultimate end which I admit will bring these kids into the pedestal one day.

Everytime I hear Wawin and Faith telling chikas about their dreams i almost reach heaven but realizing that this is what we only have... i almost fall down the ground. I have that fear inside of just letting them go working out for the attainment of their dreams because you see? our capacity is too small to combat their claims. But I never lost hope. I knew one day, the end will justify the means. . .

Gerwin, my eldest is a super loving son and kuya to her sister. Now on his 4th year in High School at Philippine Science High School, Mintal, Davao City. Director's Lister (DL-honor) since First Year but when he got measles last December, 2007 ohhhhhhhh my he was so disappointed but I thanked God coz he was able to overcome said disappointment. He felt that way maybe because of the goals he has set but was just destroyed by the measles followed by sored eyes! whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!! He's a dreamer. I love listening to his stories because he always talk about life and his future with me, papa and Faith. He is a determined person, full of humility, very responsible, organized and a great planner. Faith naman is on her 6th level in the Elementary at Dadiangas West, now, 12 years old, 5 years younger kay kuya wawin. Has a sense of humor and really very fond of reading, writing and story telling. If we are together, I also act like a child coz everytime we laugh as if nobody's around watching us hahahahaha. Her words are sharp! she thinks deeply in a very practical way. She loves kuya very much because she always include kuya in her dreams.

Me and papa will never get tired of squeezing all possible resources to make their dreams a reality one day. For sure, God won't allow these two precious jewels to just wander around and be nowhere to find. They are the reason of my existence and their dreams and aspirations are the reasons of my survival. . .